Saturday, September 9, 2017

Unfair

Ang unfair naman.

Why do I still love you when you never did in the first place?
Why do I still care when you don't even said sorry for all the bullshits you did.
Why do I still want us to be together when you're enjoying exploring other woman?
Why do I still love you despite of all shits you did?
Why do I still can't get you out of my head?
Why do I still longing for your voice, your hugs, You!

Life is so unfair, I just invested too much feelings and love, and now I am here left alone and trying to forget all the pain that put me through.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Teachings

Appreciation Post:

Thank you Lord for all the lessons I gained from bad and good experience.

You taught me the feeling of falling in love so madly.

You taught me how is the feeling of being loved by someone you loved the most.

You made me realize how capable I am to express the love I can offer.

You made me realize that love really means sacrificing everything just to make sure that your loved one is happy.

You made me realize that I am not the only good girl ever existed.

You taught me how it feels when you're really in pain.

You taught me patience.

You taught me from the first place that I should listen to you.

You taught me that I should balance my heart and my mind. Alwayd believe in your instincts because it's God's way of talking to you.

You made me realize that there are soooo many people who loves me and appreciate me that I shouldn't beg for one person's love.

You made me realize that even you did everything, you gave everything.. If he's not into you, he'll cheat, he'll lie.

You made me realize that I shouldn't trust people so easily.

You made me realize that I must not gave in so essily because I am worth a thousand efforts and feelings.

You made me realize what real love is and what love can do for all of the people.

You taught me that love offers extreme emotions. Extreme happiness and extreme sadness.

You made me realize that I should know how to wait for my turn. Don't rush things.

You taught me how to be strong.

You made me realize that I shouldn't be underdog.

You taught me to stand up when everything fails.

You whispered to me that I must continue my life.

You taught me to believe in myself.

You taught me everything that I should learn.

And most above all, you taught me how to forgive.


Maybe that's the reason why I met people. Why I met my fairytale and nightmare in one.
Atleast now, I learned how I can love someone. That I can do anything for love but atleast know my limits.

Thanks for everything, Lord! You are really the best and you never failed me. All praises! I love you! ❤

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Huli na'ng Lahat

Tunay at masayang pag-ibig,
bakit 'tila nawalang silbi.
Iisa tayo ngunit pilit.
Damdamin ko'y hindi mawari.

Wala 'kong pinagsisisihan.
Lahat nang 'to'y katotohanan.
Ikaw pa rin aking kailangan,
Ikaw pa rin ang sagot sa pagtahan.

Inintindi ang sinabi,
pakiramdam mo nama'y hindi.
Ngunit ika'y nagkakamali.
Alam ko, kailangang harapin.

Ikaw pa rin naman, sa puso ko.
Walang iba, di kayang maglaro.
Kahit alam kong ika'y may iba nang gusto.
Di man aminin, ngunit masakit 'to.

Kahit pano ika'y nagsawa,
Sabihin mo mang hinding hindi,
Ngunit ito'y aking nadama.
Tila ika'y palayo na ng unti-unti.

Binigay ang lahat sa'yo.
Maramdaman mo lang na ika'y buo.
Pero bakit parang may naglalaho.
Pag-ibig mong sakin lang noon.

Siguro nga ito'y hindi para satin.
Tama man ngunit maling pilitin.
Kahit ipaglaban, wala namang didinggin,
Pag-ibig na nasayang natin.

Sana mawala na sa isip,
Na ako'y hindi naging totoo.
Alam kong alam mo ang kalakip
Ng damdamin kong puro puso.

Darating ang panahon,
Ako'y hindi na maalala,
ng puso mong pilit kinahon.
Isang hiling, sana'y natulungan kitang lumigaya.

Hanggang ngayon di alam,
saan pupunta ang pusong walang lugar.
Puro nalang pag-aasam,
sa susunod na kabanata'y may lugar.

Ito na siguro ang huli.
Ayaw mang aminin pero ito na.
Sana ika'y kaya nyang mahalin,
Tulad ng pag-ibig kong tinatapos na.

Masakit mang isipin ngunit wala na akong magagawa. 😭💔

Tagalog, para mas ramdam na ramdam ko. 😢

Renzi Arriola
August 23, 2017 7:24PM

Saturday, August 19, 2017

FACT. CHECK!

I agree, sayang nga talaga si Caleb bilang jowa mo. If only matino sya. Or okay lang naman kung di sya matino. Pero nalabas talaga na may halaga ka lang kasi may benefits.

Narealize ko, di ka nga siguro balak seryosohin nyan. Kasi kaya di ka nyan niligawan kasi di nya gusto ng commitment. Gusto nya lang ng kalandian after breakup. Normal sa mga lalaki yun e. Yung kalandian after masaktan. Like see, ngayon diba? Proud to say sya na ano ka ba sa kanya, di ka naman niligawan. Di ka naman girlfriend. La namang kayo. Successful sya dun kasi parang right decision na di ka nya niligawan.

Siguro sa 2 months na meron kayo, akala mo love yung nakikita mo. Pero more of kaya sya nageeffort kasi masaya sya. Nawawala yung mga stress nya sa buhay habang kausap o kasama ka.

Kaya nahurt sya nung nang-iwan ka. Kasi panglandian ka nga lang diba? So expectation nya e sya ang magliligwak sayo. Pero sorry, naunahan mo sya.
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Kaya please lang, wag tayong papagago sa gago. Kung alam mo nang may mali, LEAVE. Wag mo na isugar coat! Tama na. Kasi dun lang mageend up. Dun lang din mapupunta. You don't deserve a bullshit!

Friday, August 18, 2017

Words of Wisdom

These are the words that I, or we must put in our minds.

Kaya mo yan!! Tama ka naman e baka nagmeet kayo for a purpose na matutunan nyang nakakapagod syang mahalin at sinayang nya yung love na inooffer mo sa kanya.
Also sayo, baka para malaman mo na ay ganun ka pala kaintense magmahal. Ngayon alam mo na san mo dapat bigyan ng limit.

For sure this time, mas nakilala mo na sarili mo pagdating sa love.

Isipin mo nalang na at least naexperience mo pano mahalin at ituring na girlfriend. Syempre diba tagal mo na ding naging single.

Syempre before may pagkaHopeless Romantic ka. Ngayon alam mo ng may mga gago talagang ready ka gaguhin kahit sobrang bait mo na sa kanila.

Thank you Treesha, you're always the best. I'm so blessed to have you as my friend talaga :)

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Finally

From time to time I'm always searching.
A story that I perfectly dream.
That moment that I will start writing
All those mem'ries I want to redeem.

I waited years, months and days to love
Continued my life imperfectly,
Closed my eyes to the people in love
But still, I haven't found it freely.

I almost gave up, waited for luck,
that someone will just come my way, soon.
But universe wants me to be stuck.
Funny how I found myself to doomed.

I felt bored and then you just happened,
And that was the best bored experience.
My life started to change the way I never expected,
turned out meaningful glances and gestures.

I know this time I am falling in love.
After so many searches, it's you,
the one that I am waiting to come.
I wish that this will be my last search.

I admit that it happened too fast,
but I know it happened perfectly.
We're totally different with class
Own ways, unusual talks but wholly.

I know someday, I'll let the world see.
How happy I am to be with you.
Can't wait to tell them you're my baby
And I hope you feel the same way, too.

I love you, Jeiel ♥

RENZI ARRIOLA
August 8, 2017 / 3:35PM

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

To my dearest Choi ❤

Old routines, me myself and I. Standing on my own with nothing to expect something new in my every days. And then the story started to change when I got to know you. You made me realize that fairytale love stories do exist but with imperfect twist. I'm so blessed and thankful that you came into my life. I almost believe to myself that there will be no serious man alive and then you came, unexpectedly. You opened my eyes that you are there, the one I'm longing. The one I'm dreaming. The ONE that I know will never come. You made me believe that the standards I'm carrying is all woth it. Thank you for bringing more colors to my life. It will be the start of everything. All the pain, all the heartaches, all the lessons I learned from love is all worth it. Because now, NOW is the time that you'll shower me the love I think all people deserve. You were the first person who made me cry because of joy. 😍 I really prayed for this, and He gave me you! Thank you so much! I love you! ❤ Please don't get tired of me. 😊

June 14, 2017